If you really knew me you would know that I'm an introvert, nerdy, socially clueless and a terrible bookworm.
I really don't do well in large group situations unless I know lots of people. I hate walking into a crowded room and not knowing anyone. I'm not the type who is confident enough to just walk up and say hi! I'd be the one in the corner, looking around and waiting until someone came over to me to talk. Giving presentations is awful enough in front of people I know--worse if I know no one. Blogging has been wonderful--there is no face to face first time meeting awkwardness that is so hard for me. I've met some wonderful people and made some great friends doing this. It's a great place for an introvert to open up.
I am a nerd. Well maybe a geek. I know a lot about the things I like--history, trivia, geology, things like that. I remember random facts that don't really mean anything unless you are playing Trivial Pursuit. In high school I always had an answer, knew the lyrics to songs, was a member of the speech team--not necessarily debate, more memorized pieces from humor, drama, and poetry--and being a member you'd think some of my anxiety at getting up in front of people would have been alleviated. Yeah, not so much.
I am also socially clueless sometimes. I guess I never really learned how to be confident and certain things can go right over my head. It's way better now than when I was younger, but there are still times when I feel I'm missing something important in social situations.
And about the bookworm thing. Well, as a socially awkward teenager, books were safer and more reliable than people. They offered a wonderful escape, even if only for a few minutes. I read voraciously all through school. I still do, but have less time to devote to it. I'm always on the look out for new adventures in books. And I get so caught up that I will totally miss what's going on around me sometimes. Dangerous with two boys so I don't read that way very often when they are active.
So my bloggy personality is me, but in real life that first meeting I would totally give off a different vibe. Once I get to know someone, then the casual, funny person who I can be comes out.
This week I'm playing along with
Mama Kat's Pretty Much World Famous Writer's Workshop.
Her prompts this week:
1.) Your 15 minutes of fame.
2.) A rule I broke.
3.) If you really knew me, you would know that...
4.) What battle are you fighting? Write a poem overcoming.
5.) Write about someone who made your childhood bearable.
I chose #3. Choose one for yourself and play along.